It's a serious affair. Either I Do or I Die.
Either I get into a decent B-School next year or my life is over. Like over over.
It might sound a little too dramatic. But that's pretty much the truth.
Professionally, my career in my present firm is taking a downhill road.
And it's not that I am not doing my job well or I have bad relations with everyone. It's just that I have good relations with almost everyone except the decision-makers/the service line managers - the people who will be deciding whether I can move on to the next level in the firm or not.
And I am not even trying to change the way things are. Because ,simply put, I don't want to. I don't care. I have no intention to stay.
I have pretty much made up my mind to leave the firm by early next year. I am staying here only because people tell me the "profile" and "brand-name" of my firm's gonna help me in my MBA interviews if ,at all, I clear the written part of the exams. I am hanging on just for that reason.
So imagine not making it through the written exams. This one year will have been a total waste then. My career will have been messed up beyond salvation. My MBA aspirations will have been crushed.
I will have nowhere to go. Neither here nor there. What would I do then? I have no answers.
I am scared beyond words. I freak out at times. No, I freak out most times.
Of course, I am trying my best here. But I don't know what the future holds. I will only know by the beginning of next year.
I will know then if I will get a shot at being "something" and doing "something" I want.
Either I get into a decent B-School next year or my life is over. Like over over.
It might sound a little too dramatic. But that's pretty much the truth.
Professionally, my career in my present firm is taking a downhill road.
And it's not that I am not doing my job well or I have bad relations with everyone. It's just that I have good relations with almost everyone except the decision-makers/the service line managers - the people who will be deciding whether I can move on to the next level in the firm or not.
And I am not even trying to change the way things are. Because ,simply put, I don't want to. I don't care. I have no intention to stay.
I have pretty much made up my mind to leave the firm by early next year. I am staying here only because people tell me the "profile" and "brand-name" of my firm's gonna help me in my MBA interviews if ,at all, I clear the written part of the exams. I am hanging on just for that reason.
So imagine not making it through the written exams. This one year will have been a total waste then. My career will have been messed up beyond salvation. My MBA aspirations will have been crushed.
I will have nowhere to go. Neither here nor there. What would I do then? I have no answers.
I am scared beyond words. I freak out at times. No, I freak out most times.
Of course, I am trying my best here. But I don't know what the future holds. I will only know by the beginning of next year.
I will know then if I will get a shot at being "something" and doing "something" I want.
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